My LOVE

My love, I utter is all I have
Only thing I’ve shielded with my life
Your love, he states I will not harm
Just take my hand, let’s follow the song

His tune so sweet, my mind is firm
My heart is singing, his eyes alert
What guarantees I have? I ask of thee
No guarantee as such. It’s for you to see

So I built my wall, thick and high
My hand gave in, my hand et al
Tomorrow I say, when light breaks through
Tomorrow it’s over, I can’t bear to lose

Your wish he says, I will obey
Be careful, as you know what may
My heart is strong, yours too true
-My wall is up, I’ve understood

A look, a kiss, a touch, a feeling
A heart oblivious, a heart still beating
The light is blinding, visibly streaming
The day has come, but I’m still singing

His tune is gone. I now can see
that wall I built, it just fell on me
The singing stopped, his presence lingers..
My heart abandoned, once smitten.

For Nostalgia...

Reading the recent sad news of the cruise ship that sunk in Italy, I was reminded about MV Doulas, a floating book fair ship that operates for charity. We used to go on school trips to the ship to buy books and it was so exciting! It was an event I used to look forward to every year!

So, I’m adding one more thing to my 2012 resolutions..to hunt that ship down, and see when is it coming to the UAE!

I’ve googled it and I’ve found that another ship now operates as a book fair instead:

“MV Logos hope is a vessel operated by the German charitable organization. It is actually designed to replace the previous MV Doulos which was sold to a singaporean in 2009. MV Logos hope is twice as big, the ship was completely refitted over a period of 5 years. They have volunteer crews and staffs of over 400 people, from around the world over 50 different countries. There’s a book fair featuring more than 5000 different titles ( almost half a million of books collection).”

Interesting right?

So maybe it’s not the same ship, but I LOVE books! The volunteer option is quite tempting too… What better way/place to volunteer than on a ship full of books?

Well anyway..my search turned up that the ship was here last year January – If I only knew. I checked out their schedule this year, up until August it’s going to be in the Far East. I guess I’ll just have to keep tabs and reminders every few months to find out when exactly they’ll be back in UAE.

Might not be an achievable 2012 resolution after all.

This quote hit home...

“All blame is a waste of time. No matter how much fault you find with another, and regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you. The only thing blame does is to keep the focus off you when you are looking for external reasons to explain your unhappiness or frustration. You may succeed in making another feel guilty about something by blaming him, but you won’t succeed in changing whatever it is about you that is making you unhappy.”

Dr. Wayne W. Dyer, is a best-selling author and motivational speaker.

Wake - up call!

Two weeks ago the doctor diagnosed both my knees with osteoarthritis. I saw my world crumble away. I’m 26! How is it possible? I had a lump in my throat and I thought. This is it. I’ve lived thus far and now I have aged all of a sudden. All of a sudden? It can’t BE. It definitely wasn’t sudden. I took my youth for granted. I AM taking my youth for granted! 26. I always felt, I’m still young. The whole time the doctor was explaining the do’s and don'ts of my disease, Images of being energetic and running around with children I’d like to have one day clouded my thoughts, and I felt my tears brimming. The thought of not being fully capable to run around with my own children one day (god willing) was shocking. What am I waiting for..? Then.. Just then I suddenly had a different perspective about marriage. I always thought I’m not in a hurry to get married, and I will wait for the one that I love…yeah right. I’m not even open to finding love! I now understand my friends who got married for the sake of getting married. It is simply a way of moving on. Time waits for no one.

It was a moment of clarity.

I’m not saying I’ll accept whoever that comes along; all I’m saying is that there has been a shift of thoughts.

Oh and by the way. I went for a second opinion and guess what the doctor said. No osteoarthritis. Alhamdulillah.

Bahrain...

It is very sad seeing the events that have been unfolding recently. Bahrain our neighbor state is going through very distressing conditions at this moment. My heart goes out to the people, but I am not surprised at the stance the Arab leader has taken after so many weeks. Arab men are known to be proud, and to rule their people with strong fist. Just like how most raise their children, with the stick for every wrong they do, until the child, in fear obeys the father. The Arabs need to learn it doesn’t work that way anymore. Even with your own children, violence doesn’t get you any where; it just sparks rebellion in them. Arabs need to learn the art of dialogue, of being fair, of re-instilling Islamic values and practices, of kindness and toleration. All this wouldn’t have happened if the people were treated fairly in the first place. If the Shiites are truly being oppressed in Bahrain, it is their right to voice out their demands for a better life and equality; however, it seems that the protesters have bitten more than they could chew.
They demanded a lot, and it seems that they will loose it all.


Be reasonable in your protests, just because it happened in Egypt and Tunisia, doesn’t mean things will go the same way for you. You’ve voiced your opinion, you did get some positive dialogue. Make a deal and walk away till next time. Safely. Alive. In peace.

My heart goes out to Bahrain.

الله يحفظكم

You may not know who you are… but you have made a difference in my life.

You were probably that stranger on the street that gave me a kind word, or a random person online that gave me the much needed comfort I was seeking. You were probably in a group when I needed to be surrounded.
You are probably now a good friend of mine, a colleague, an acquaintance or you are a person I’ve never even met - yet.

You were just what I needed at that point in my life.

You probably don’t know how you’ve made a difference, you probably don’t even know me, or even remember me but I do.
And I am forever grateful our paths have crossed before, and maybe they would cross again sometime in the future, maybe this time for me to make a difference in your life, or maybe for you to influence mine once again.


Thank you.

Life is too short not to love your job...right?

Right. I'm bored of my job. Tired of it... the more the days pass, the more I'm convinced that I need to change my job. ASAP. When I think of tomorrow, I dread going to work. I have the typical 9to5 job...I don't know how or when such strong dislike of my work has emerged...I'm surprised at myself!

...and I am confused. So if I don't like this job then what DO I like? I'm looking into myself to see what exactly is it that I want to do. I'm even thinking of a career change but everything is so vague at the moment.

Looking back though, I knew it. I knew while I was in college that majoring in accounts wasn't what I really liked.. and I just went ahead with it. Now nearly after 4 years in the field I want out - or I want different. Whatever it is I want a change for now. What scares me is that what if I get something worse than what I have now. What if my current job is better than the next one?

I know the only way of finding out is to try.

Apparently there are many out there like me.. all you need to do is google 'changing careers' and read their experiences. There's a lot of tips online, and guidance but they all say the same thing. A thorough self-assessment needs to be done about what I want instead. It isn't easy but it's definitely possible.

Waka waka...This is Africa!

I had an AWESOME holiday! I Thoroughly enjoyed myself. I went for my friend's wedding in Tanga, Tanzania and it was beautiful. The weather's beautiful, the people are so friendly, the food is soooo tasty... it was pure bliss! The music, the dancing, the FUN! The fun... oh I had so much fun!

Life is quite laid back over there, and time doesn't seem to move as fast... I can't speak enough about the weather though... a huge change from the heat over here.

The wedding was amazing...I have to tell you about the "baykoko". This is an african beat where women dance to it by moving their hips in a slow sensual way... and they get all hyper and lie on the floor dancing to it! It's something I've never seen before but trust me. All those who saw it there for the first time with me, will never forget it for sure! Baykoko has certainly inspired people in funny ways after that!

My trip was lovely all in all.. made new friends, shared experiences, and realized once again, 'what a small world'. There's always a connection somewhere. I could be talking to someone over the phone in a totally different country, not knowing I'd meet this person one day, and under what circumstances. It doesn't seize to amaze me. I believe everything does happen for a reason. Each person that we encounter in our day to day life has a purpose, a reason why they said what they said, or why we met them in the first place. It's just that we don't know the reason yet. We'll only be able to connect the dots later in life, and sometimes we would never see how the dots can even be connected, it's just hidden wisdom. And we have to accept that... It's the beauty of life isn't it?

Hot hot HOT!

This summer is killing me...

The heat is unbelievable. I've been having headaches, and unexplainable body aches. Oh and insomnia. For a while I just couldn't sleep. I really don't get it. Stress levels are high I must admit. Everyone's on leave or sick! At the office I was fortunate enough for one colleague to go on leave and the other to get chicken pox just the next day! Great timings. I have to do the work of three.

Guests. Come weekend and Hello guests! Especially since it's summer time many of my younger cousins come over to spend time with us, add on random guests who drop by, add on guests who've come for a holiday, add on our normal friday gathering and add on transit visitors. You can imagine the rest. It was a fiasco.

The best part is: The leave days my colleague took are perfect. For him. I'll be wasting my leave days to adjust to his! I'm a tad bit annoyed... but the actual positive thing about all this, or this whole post is that I'm going on holiday.

Yes. I. Am.

Hello people!

I haven't been writing recently, and I've hardly been online. The reason being, I must admit, is that I now have a BB - I got it for my birthday, and ever since, my interest and frequent use of the internet has subsided!

This has proved to be a good thing btw... I have been so busy these past two months, having a blackberry just helped being in touch with people, and be on the move. It made me realise how much time I used to waste browsing the net...not that I don't love to write here or keep in touch and participate in forums, but to be fixed in front of a laptop is an opportunity lost where I can be elsewhere meeting and having real experiences.

As for the wedding season; I've attended so many since, and still going on. So much to write about it, but it's best that I don't, considering how close the people are to me.

We're already in the 3rd month of the year! I don't really know why I'm counting down or couting to, or why I'm freaked out about it, but yeah, 9 more months to go! Hope this year so far is going well for you as it is for me.

xxx