Sunday, June 5, 2011
Two weeks ago the doctor diagnosed both my knees with osteoarthritis. I saw my world crumble away. I’m 26! How is it possible? I had a lump in my throat and I thought. This is it. I’ve lived thus far and now I have aged all of a sudden. All of a sudden? It can’t BE. It definitely wasn’t sudden. I took my youth for granted. I AM taking my youth for granted! 26. I always felt, I’m still young. The whole time the doctor was explaining the do’s and don'ts of my disease, Images of being energetic and running around with children I’d like to have one day clouded my thoughts, and I felt my tears brimming. The thought of not being fully capable to run around with my own children one day (god willing) was shocking. What am I waiting for..? Then.. Just then I suddenly had a different perspective about marriage. I always thought I’m not in a hurry to get married, and I will wait for the one that I love…yeah right. I’m not even open to finding love! I now understand my friends who got married for the sake of getting married. It is simply a way of moving on. Time waits for no one.
It was a moment of clarity.
I’m not saying I’ll accept whoever that comes along; all I’m saying is that there has been a shift of thoughts.
Oh and by the way. I went for a second opinion and guess what the doctor said. No osteoarthritis. Alhamdulillah.